Have you ever been in a place in your life where you felt as if you were in the wilderness? And not just for a brief time, but for a very long time? In fact, the weight of walking in the wilderness for so long was taking a toll on your relationship with the Lord, with your friends, and the calling you know that He has on your life?
This is something I have personally been experiencing for a while now. It has been a crazy year for my family. We welcomed our first child into the world just over a year ago and the delivery was a scary one. Two months later, my husband ended up in the hospital and had to have surgery on his lung. Between adjusting to motherhood with a newborn, taking care of my husband, and recovering from my own traumatic delivery- it was easy to remain in that place. A place of loneliness and doubt.
During that time, the enemy was doing a number on my mind. Anytime I thought about getting involved in ministry again or continuing with the things I was doing before my daughter was born, he would tell me that I ‘wasn’t good enough’, I ‘wasn’t needed’ or that I ‘lost the anointing’. And for a while, I believed him. I struggled with friendships. I had a hard time being intentional about reaching out to other women and building relationships. I was afraid to be honest about my struggles and feelings because I didn’t want to be judged or misunderstood. All of that was another lie. The enemy wants us to look at other women and compare our lives to theirs. He wants us to feel discontent and secluded in our struggles.
By the Grace of God, I have moved forward and taken a leap into the plans that are laid out before me. For so long, I was bound by confusion not knowing what God wanted to do with my life. I began to believe I was no longer needed or not good enough to be used by Him. I was making excuses and waiting for the heavens to open and an angel to appear to me and tell me what I was supposed to do. Don’t we all wish that it were that easy? Instead, He was patiently waiting on me. The Holy Spirit is so persistent, yet gentle. Giving me dreams and visions, ideas and plans. All that needed to happen was for me to step out boldly and make the first move. Once I did that, everything began to fall into place and was orchestrated so beautifully. He never ceases to amaze me.
“Remember not the former things,
nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I am doing a new thing;
now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness
and rivers in the desert.” -Isaiah 43:18-19
While I felt that I was alone in this wilderness place for so long, He was there. He never left, but He was waiting like a gentleman. It doesn’t mean that He won’t work through us right where we are without asking us to do a new thing. Some seasons will require us to do the hard work of waiting patiently. It is when we go into a season of trying new things with an open heart that we leave room for God to grow us and mold us to be more like Him.
A great friend shared this verse with me and it pierced my heart-
“Arise, for it is your task, and we are with you; be strong and do it.” -Ezra 10:4
While doing some studying on this scripture, I also found this parallel verse-
“Be careful now, for the Lord has chosen you to build a house for the sanctuary; be strong and do it.” -1 Chronicles 28:10
When you feel a tug on your heart to begin something new, be it a ministry, a bible study, a new friendship, whatever it may look like- step out in faith. Throw off the lies of the enemy and ARISE. For it is YOUR TASK. You are CHOSEN. He will be with you. Be STRONG and DO IT!
I am going to be launching a new virtual Life Coaching group called the ‘Craving Connection Life Group’. This group will empower women to strengthen their relationship with Jesus, make new meaningful friendships like we are created to do, and step into the plan that God has for our lives. It is important that we stand together and encourage one another through life’s daily obstacles and through our walk with The Lord. There is power in numbers and we are stronger together.
“And though a man might prevail against one who is alone, two will withstand him—a threefold cord is not quickly broken.” -Ecclesiastes 4:12
What new thing has He been doing in you lately? Are you craving connection with your Savior or developing new meaningful friendships?