On Friday, my daughter turned a year old. I still can’t wrap my mind around the fact that it has been an entire year since she has entered this world. One year that our lives have been completely turned upside down. One year of tears, one year of laughter. One year of nursing, and one year of the least amount of sleep I have ever gotten. One year of teaching, one year of watching you grow and learn. One year full of amazing memories.
Part of me is sad and wants you to stay little forever. Although I wish I could keep you a baby, I am truly excited to continue to watch you grow. You are the most amazing little person I have ever known and you have taught me so much over this last year. You have taught me to be patient, understanding and shown me that I could love to a capacity I had never known possible.
I always wanted children, but you have shown me motherhood in a whole new light. Ever since you have been in my life, I have felt a new purpose. A new calling. I feel like being a mother is my thing. I used to be afraid that I was unprepared. That I wouldn’t be a good enough mom for you. Sometimes I still have these thoughts and worries, but not often. I love being a mother. I think I can do this. I know I can. I am ready for whatever lies ahead because you make being your mother so easy. Some days are hard, don’t get me wrong, but you are so worth it. You are the best friend I have spent my life praying for. I love you and your father more than anything and you two fill a space in my heart that I never knew existed.
Thank you for giving me the best year of my life. I love you, my sweet Charlie girl.